Sometimes, you have to lose something to realize how much you loved it. You can't have the good stuff forever. There is too much good stuff out there to be hooked on just one good thing. I think I just over stayed my welcome on guard. It was just my time to move on. I thoroughly believe that if God wanted me to still be there He would have made it, not easier, but a little better. I loved it while it lasted, but it was time for bigger and better things. I don't know what would have happened if I had not walked out when I did. Who knows? I could have died that night, or something that was not in God's plan might have happened. I don't know... but HE does. My grandmother pointed out over the weekend that I looked better, and stress free. Although the stress part is not fully true... I do feel better. It amazes me sometimes how God will change things in our lives. It can be the smallest thing, like losing your keys, or something HUGE, like quitting a school activity on a competition day, that He changes to make our lifes better, and to fit them into HIS will. I don't blame anyone for what happened, nor do I try to have a pitty party for myself, but I will say this. I trust that God kept me from something that fateful day, and there is nothing that anyone can say contrart to that.
I love the way life feels now. It is GRAND.
I am ready for vacation, though.
I am ready to leave the land, and
head to my beloved sea
and just lay under the sun,
play in the wave,
and possible build a sand castle...
or an entirely new world....

“My alphabet starts with this letter called yuzz. It's the letter I use to spell yuzz-a-ma-tuzz. You'll be sort of surprised what there is to be found once you go beyond 'Z' and start poking around!” - Dr. Seuss

thanks for listening.
-sam