ok.... I am cooled off now. I just had to vent some of my hidden anger.

I don't know what to say right now. Just thought I would add that I am not a mental case to be institutionalized. LOL. I don't think so @ least. I rather enjoy the way the @ looks... I am particularly fond of it.

I got told that I always looked pretty from one of my friends today, and it felt good. Cause I don't always feel pretty. But one of my friends said something about looking pretty, and this other friend said "Well, It is Sammy, she always looks pretty." I thought it was grand...

I got a Computer Applications Academic award today. That made me feel good, too.
Today was just a feel good day all around.

That was all.

I sit here, at the keyboard, with tears on my cheeks. I don't want to cry; I don't want to be sad, hurt, or offended like this anymore. I shouldn't feel this way, I was right to say what I did. I had a right to say what I did, and for that I lost a friend. I made the mistake of speaking my mind, and I believe that the situation is permanent... not to be toyed with any longer. She pushed away a great guy that cared so much for her, and now she has shoved me aside. I don't think that she will have a place to live before she is 19 because she seems to be on a roll, and the family she is with won't have any of it. I learned, today, how to turn the other cheek. I learned how not to argue back when someone has taken it too far from the rocky road that we were on. I learned that I can do this, even when it kills me because it came from a friend. I don't know what will happen, but I don't think that I could bear to hear it anymore... so I am choosing to end it forever. Friends forever is a phrase that means what it states, unless one friend begins to call names and places... "sticks and stones" isn't relevant when the words come from a friend. As painful as it is to say it, I lost a friend to something stupid... and frankly (I feel badly for feeling this way) I don't want her friendship back. The hurt and tears, I hope, will pass with the time... that is what it is more than anything- the hurt of a friendship for so long lost to the abyss... not the words that were said.

The last While...

Well alot has been going in the last little while..
I went to my aunt betty's house for spring break and prom was last night..
I will put more later.